I'm so stuck and I don't know what to do. I would really appreciate any advice. I haven't picked up a pencil or ipad to draw something in over a month. The last time I spent more than an hour on any drawing was probably a year ago. The last big project I put any effort into (a tattoo apprenticeship portfolio) basically got laughed at. Every time I try to make a start I just feel overwhelmed. I get stuck in the same cycle. I know I have to draw in order to improve so I can reach my goals. Then I think about all the things that I need to improve and get intimidated (I don't even have a solid grasp of basic fundamentals). When I can force myself to sit down and draw something I hate it so much I throw it straight into the bin. I try and psych myself up to draw but I know that most of the time I feel too overwhelmed to start or hate what I make and can't bring myself to do it. Then I'm back to square one and beating myself up because if I don't draw I won't ever improve. I know that Stan and Marshall say to plan out your art school and put the hours in and skills will come. I have ASD trying to plan a syllabus on 'how to draw everything' or even concentrate on something for more than twenty minutes is a nightmare. I've tried purchasing various online courses but find them so difficult to follow it makes me feel like an idiot. I know I started drawing because it used to make me feel relaxed and because I wanted to put beautiful things out into the world but now it just makes me want to cry. I haven't really seen any improvement in my drawing for a couple of years, if anything it's gotten worse because I haven't been drawing as regularly. Has anyone here ever been in the same position? How do I get out of this slump and back to drawing? I've tried forcing myself to draw but whenever I do the experience is so negative it makes me want to draw even less. I don't like giving up but I don't know what else to do.