取りの Diary 🌈🌸✨
Okay, so since I became committed and confident enough to finally join an art forum, I thought I'd just create a blog-type thing to post and track my progress until I get bored and maybe meet some new people along the way too! I'm still learning how this site works, but it's Proko right?! It has to be good!!! I'll probably either post some things related to Japan and Japanese culture since that's something that I'm very into! I've been posting art and artist struggles on Japanese forums before, so why not?! I mean, you can always delete your account and pretend like nothing had ever happened... 😂👀
@pinkapricorn To be honest, I'm pretty much the most critical one in the art-making process... For example, my class was on a road trip and they had one of those autograph books, I ended up drawing in it, and people went up to me to compliment, how good the drawing was, while I was mentally hoping they wouldn't notice, that how cupid's bow turned out, makes the woman I drew look like Hitler... 👀 That's the thing... Most of the art I make is just ugly to me, and it's so frustrating to be in the cycle where you can't really enjoy neither the process nor the outcome because everything seems wrong and ugly to me! Another example - I wanted to paint Emily from "Corspe bride" because it's the spooky season and I was enjoying the process of sketching, because I actually got the pose I wanted and was actually enjoying drawing, but when I started to paint over it, oh god, it was awful... And I just hate that I can't make what I want or what I think looks good to me, so that's why I'm so focused on improving! I can't even enjoy drawing for myself... I keep this kind of crappy sketchbook where I draw Limp Bizkit-esque people with really warped proportions and that makes me happy when I have the time to do that, mostly because they're supposed to look kind of ugly. It's also some great advice, I've already made two stacks in procreate - one for figure drawings and the other for finished paintings, so I can get a better look at how much improvement has been made! Yeah, the pain of misery and practically doing only studies drove me straight into the burnout hole and now I see things a lot differently - if you don't care about what you make, why make it? If you're only studying for some unknown mystical reason, why do it in the first place?
Okay, so I've been on a vacation in Hungary and since I'm so busy I couldn't finish the piece for the proko skull challenge 😤😞 Figured I'd post a somewhat rough sketch here... Kinda spooky, kinda scary, kinda skeletoony! Gashadokuro! 🦷💀 Feel free to think of them as Skelly's weird japanese cousins...
Okay, so I'm actually pretty blue, since I just don't have the time or the mood to draw - basically working on school stuff the whole time and when I sat down to draw this evening, nothing just went my way because I was so tired... Sleep is also a problem... I just can't seem to get enough... and oh, god, I'm so sick of everything... I actually had fun starting to do an animation, but no, I can't because projects, projects and more useless uninspiring projects... I'm just so, so frustrated... I'm also going to Hungary next week, but I'll prolly still have to work/ do little bits of the stupid projects, because they just don't seem to move any further... I want to spend time alone, drawing and just being with my own thoughts, not make slides in google docs... ugh... Also an update... Even the very little figure drawing I did - the right way, the Proko way did improve my figures and lines a lot, and I do seem to be recovering from my long-term burnout and creative block.. but oh, god, if I don't get more time for myself, I'll go insane... I'll go insane... All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy. All work and no play makes jack a dull boy.All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy. All work and no play makes jack a dull boy. All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy. All work and no play makes jack a dull boy. All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy. All work and no play makes jack a dull boy. All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy. All work and no play makes jack a dull boy.....
Asked for help
Okay, so it's the first day after of doing figure drawing/ gesture drawing the correct way! It's really really hard to quit my bad habit of copying the bumps of the body instead of doing everything like I'm supposed to - capturing the pose with simple lines and worrying only about movement rather than detail... It's a control freak's biggest nightmare and it's pretty hard to get used to drawing a figure in just a few spaghetti - like lines... Here are some sketches from to day to not make this thread completely empty... Any comments about how I'm doing so far? Any help would be appreciated!
Alright, first post, starting with an entry for another contest relating to Japanese! It's definitely my favourite since it captures both the Nekomata and the overall feeling of those Japanese woodblock prints! One of my biggest vices is not being patient enough with anything, so that's why most of the art I make is slightly rushed... and you can kind of see it... Trying to get better at it right now...!