I got a little money and I was thinking about buying it to start. I'm a complete beginner but part of me thinks spending about $140 for a basics course when I could get something like that for free seems iffy to me. I want to see the best in people like Stan, and maybe he knows how to really cut things down and make beginners like me go from absolute shit to pretty good. At the same time, 140 is a lot of money especially since I don't have a job. btw also struggle with artblock, untreatable ADHD, and other issues. Even getting the motivation to pick up the pencil and draw is hard enough, let alone believing I would get anywhere soon.