Hey there! First of all, thank you for sharing your work and thoughts with us! While I'm instantly drawn to the lovely intricacy of your designs (particularly the first three in purple), I had some broader thoughts that I hope may be of help in regards to what you've written about your drawing mindset and focus for improvement. You mentioned that you hope to learn something about yourself, and I think one of the most important things we can learn about ourselves as artists is HOW you, as a person specifically, learn. After doing so many studies, it can understandably be hard to pick up your pencil and keep going. I might suggest trying something to keep the studying exciting for you. One technique you could try is picking something you want to learn specifically and applying it to your own work. For example, let's say you're looking at an eyeball. There's something about that eyeball you really like--maybe it's the reflection and the way it sits on the eye. While referencing that image, instead of copying it to perfection, apply it to your own design. Interpret that reflection onto your own character. You'll not only be learning new techniques, but you may find yourself more invested. Everyone learns differently, and different things will excite you on different days, perhaps even depending on your mood. You might also try seizing what you're excited about for that day and letting that natural feeling propel your topic of study. We often feel like we always need to create and be in the process of "putting something out there" into the world. Sometimes our brains need some downtime just to receive, to look at and experience things we enjoy (nature, movies, games, books, whatever piques your interest). Taking the time just to explore what you like and not feel compelled to be creating something can sometimes help to restart your desire and inspiration to draw. One thing I like to do is browse Pinterest and look at things that inspire me, anything, with no pressure on myself to draw afterwards. The suggestions I offered are some ways that work for me, and may serve as a starting point for your own self-discovery. While discipline has certainly played a huge part in my career, it certainly helps to know what gets your artistic fire burning and ready to work! Everyone learns differently. Give yourself the chance to find out how you learn, and which ways of learning work best for you! Hopefully this helps, and good luck!!