Your final "btw" paragraph has me saying no, do not do the 140 for the course. Seriously, if it would be that much of a financial hit, and you can barely get the motivation to pick up a pencil - you're setting yourself up for even more disappointment in yourself compounded w/ the financial hit. There's plenty of free stuff, I'd do that if I were you, until when and if your btw turns around. I have motivation/adhd probs as well, and telling myself "If i spend money on this it will MAKE me do it". Nothing could be further from the truth. In fact, quite the opposite. Mess around w/ free stuff, and if you feel the inspiration buy yourself an xmas present of the course