@pinkapricorn Accepting the mistakes and getting used to them is pretty much the hardest part, also a big motivator to do assignments from the courses - mistakes are about to happen and failing is probably going to happen. I'd also love to see your sketches! I mean it's always very interesting to me to see other people's work! That's also true! The most I've learned about art is probably through trial and error! But when it comes to my work, I work on it... have a break and then correct it or add some ✨pazzaz✨. As you can probably tell, I don't trust the process that well yet...

I feel pretty down, since when I'm out of school I'm either too tired to draw or there's work to do... Especially now... Why do teachers want to ruin the fall vacation by giving out unreasonable amounts of work... Ugh... I'm still pretty unused to drawing for myself.. it's just weird, but I do feel like that's the main reason why anyone should do anything they like - for themselves, so hopefully I'll eventually get back into making art again for myself only! I've also realized that I might be overly critical... turns out that's a big creativity stunter... As always, there's so much I need to work on... I also haven't been getting a lot of time to practice japanese for the same reasons + I study German at school, so as much as I love studying Deutsch, Japanisch takes the cake for me! I've been preparing for the Deutsch test the whole day... I feel positive about it, but I still don't know, you know... Okay, and most importantly... I just need to be more patient and enjoy both the process of making art and whatever related activities come with it.. like painting... And I have to trust the process as well... but why is it so damn hard!? It's all a big UGH! 👀

I've been pretty busy lately, so I almost feel ashamed that I haven't posted much on here... Mainly because of school and other less important stuff than art... ugh... education and responsibilities am I right!??!! I've also been having some gaps in my Japanese studies, but I also became less anxious about posting art and somehow beat my crippling YouTube addiction to the point where I don't need to have a wimpy kid audio book playing 24/7, so that's also progress, right?! I've been pretty frustrated with my work lately, mainly because I realized that I have a lot to work on, which includes, but is not limited to - anatomy, patience, basic painting theory/ painting practice and figure drawing, rendering and construction... That Nekomata feels like the top of my artistic career honestly... I also hope to be more active on here... I mean I say that on every platform, but I really mean it, since the Proko website is made that there are no distractions and all of the content is in one place, so I have absolutely no reason to procrastinate on watching the videos! I also want to start a separate anatomy notebook to really hone in the theory and learn better, and mostly importantly in the right way, because the way I used to learn anatomy previously was pretty awful and I have a lot of bad habits to get rid of... so here I am... kind of ready to tackle all of them! And one more thing... I'm god awful at painting... really, really awful... I tried to draw the tanuki for the renshuu contest and I decided to challenge myself and paint the thing... and it's pretty pathetic in my opinion, so that's something I also have to practice... I'm more used to drawing, so it's a challenge to change both the mindset and workflow and practice my patience, since drawing is somewhat fast and painting is slow and takes time to get the right shape, edge and not to mess things up beyond repair! Here's the thing, I looked at the image more closely and realized that I made the worst mistake of all - adding the details first 😭 Should have taken my time with blocking in the values... **any tips for painting fur?** Also, what's your opinion on the painting so far...? It's not finished, but I'm starting to wonder if I should just start it all over again...

やあ！ はい、私は毎日日本語を勉強するようにしています。私もあまり知らないので、私の日本語はちょっと😂。。。 Pretty cool to know that someone else knows/studies Japanese on here too! :D